• A Lesson from Teairra Mari: I Ain’t Got It

  • But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

    Been a minute since we’ve talked but it’s not because I didn’t want to. The inspiration tank has been on E. Today I had an ‘a-ha’ moment after seeing the messiness of what’s going on with a certain singer/reality star and a rapper.

    Yeah. I am citing Teairra Mari for today’s inspiration.

    Never mind she is being sued by 50 Cent over her revenge porn lawsuit. Forget the fact she’s rocked a t-shirt saying “I Ain’t Got It” for the $30k she’s been ordered to pay. And we can overlook she went further, with an “I Ain’t Got It” album cover. I can’t lie; I have been feeling like the Love and Hip Hop: Hollywood star.

    I ain’t got it.

    No, I do not owe anybody coins over anything; let me explain.

    Have you ever felt challenged to accomplish even the most miniscule of tasks?

    Do you have a vision but your energy bank is empty and you can’t take steps forward?

    Is there something you feel is missing in your life and constantly sense the empty space?

    Or perhaps you don’t have what you think you need in the moment.

    I totally get it. #InThatSeason.

    While I am grateful for every day that God wakes me up, I am at a place where I honestly don’t have the energy to put anything else on my plate. In one area of my life, I don’t know what to do. In others, I am simply depleted to do any extra. In this world of hustle and making moves, I have encountered feelings of guilt and have been my worst critic. It wasn’t until two people poured into me and confirmed it’s okay if sit down somewhere. My mother says years of activity — some with no real purpose — have put me in burn out mode. My husband declares I’m not obliged to ‘make something happen’. He reminds me that God is in control; I do what I can and trust Him for the next steps and the outcome.

    We’re all wired differently. There are those of us who are consistently grinding for the next adventure – and it works. Others– raises hand – have been busy but not fruitful. It’s when we get to that crossroads we must make a decision. Do we continue to push forward — or push pause? I choose pause because I am learning my truth.

    I ain’t got it.

    Are you at the place of ain’t got it? (I know that’s grammatically incorrect; it fits though.) Here’s a few points I hope will help you fill up and stop living on empty.

    Pray and anticipate. As we pray for what it is we’re looking for, we must have faith that God will answer. Hebrews 11:6 says without faith, it’s impossible to please God and must believe He’s rewarder of them that diligently seek Him. When we haphazardly pray, we really aren’t expecting an answer. Pray with intention and the expectation to receive what you ask. James 1:5 reminds us we must believe to receive! While He’s not on our timetable — and His answer may be different than we expected — we have to trust Him in the process. God can suddenly change the course of our life. It’s not up to us to know exactly when, but to trust that what we need will be given.

    Pause before you proceed. Before the prophet Habakkuk got the command to write the vision (Habakkuk 2:2), check out the verse beforehand. He postured himself and waited to see what the Lord had to say. There’s a belief that when you don’t know what to do you should do anything. Nah, sis. We can cause our own delay when we insist of doing something just to do it. Let’s be deliberate with the work of our hands. Sometimes, that means we have to wait.

    Participate in the ‘fill up’ process. When we’re depleted– physically, mentally or emotionally – we must purposely re-energize. A hard reset. In order to do so, our to-do lists must shorten. We need to say ‘no’ to what’s not a necessity. Taking time to rest and prioritize can be our path forward. Faith without works is dead (James 2:17). Self-awareness is critical. We realize we’re trippin’ and trying to pour from an empty pitcher, right?  So yes, girl – you need to pray. But we participate in change by actually changing what we’re doing. If our current focus or activities no longer serve us well, it’s time to turn aside and do differently. We don’t give up on ourselves; we give up what’s unnecessary.

    And we keep pursuing what we need.

    Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you: for every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened. Matthew 7:7-8

    Like me, you may not have it – whatever the ‘it’ is. That’s okay; keep going to God for the fill up.